I wind my thoughts in knotless skein,
Unspoken mile by mile-
A league from immortality
Lay down my wool and smile.[4]
My hope put out white petals
In tentative delight
But twice there came convulsive frost
Obliterating blight
Which, blotting out my April,
Stirred wisdom in my root.
Should another burgeoning come
Will twig renew? 'Tis moot.[10]
Had hearts the art of porcelain
The mending were small feat
But I have owned one whose repair
Earth's craftsmen can't complete.
Had love asked only giving
The donor were content
But I have known a stealthy hand
Twice prove our loves are lent.
Had death comprised mere dying
The handiwork were sweet
But I mark its keen audition
In every eye I meet.
Had heaven held sure solace
To hasten there were wise
But I, grown timid, cautious,
Search for ambush, man's and sky's.
One day I'll meet fate's boldest stare
And ask its harsh command
My apron full of gentian and
Lone daisy in my hand.
Till then, like Jonah in the dark,
I ride the journey out
And count truth's ribs, bemused that faith
So multiplies my doubt.
Tell all the Truth but tell it slant--
Success in Circuit lies
Too bright for our infirm Delight
The Truth's superb surprise.
As Lightning to the Children eased
With expression kind
The Truth must dazzle gradually
Or every man be blind--[19]
But one seeks New Jerusalem
And knows the journey long.
The hieroglyphics gouged in air
By an impatient fire-gloved hand
Are given as our library---
We, star-affrighted, gaze to land
Where furnished in an atom's tome
Is erudition of the sky---
The dust-affronted student lifts
A blank uncomprehending eye.
And swivelling will not read the book
From which his glance will dart again,
Though it's indexed in his jugular
Where love annunciates its name.
Will not admit magnificence
Which looms a startled blink away
To bleach with gold the retina
Resigned in arrogance to grey.
Life gives so strong a covenant
Who shall not sign in trust?
Its smallest clause empowered to
Bind atom-sun or dust.
To all-compelling contract
Though codicil be pain
Adheres the constant signatory
Till only God remains.
All that fidelity attracts
A lenient bench reviews;
Sealed by the very hand of God
Exquisite bond renews.[29]
and a rank, radiant as light,
a rank of angels--
Oh what a dear confusion!
.....
and God's face bright, not angry
......
and the gleaming City, white and past imagining,
That solemn artist deathOr:
Left her portrait on the pillow--
Detail complete, save breath.
I wind my thought in knotless skein
Unspoken, mile by mile,
A league from immortality
Lay down my wool and smile.
Death is like the ruthless Nile--
The scaled beast it gives keep
Will, careless, swim its dark coil's length
Till sucked into its deep.
Who'd tell its gulping treachery,
Irrevocably gone--
While down indifferent centuries
The blanching Sphinx looks on
And none may pry her secrets--
Her reason overthrown--
The horror fixed her mindless stare
And sealed her lips with stone.[34]
It gives no cause to weep
That greater pen enfold the lamb
In everlasting keep.
Then ring the bell and call the flock
Ingather all that stray
But mark the beast intractable
The fields invite to stay.[35]
Till then, like Jonah in the dark
I ride the journey out
And count truth's ribs, bemused that faith
So multiplies my doubt.[36]
Across his soul's scarred battlefield
Where all his pride was slain
The legions of his enemy
Prepare to strike again.[38]
A mosquito buzzes round my faith
I think to name him doubt.[40]
Deliver me from cooking stoves
From kitchens, pots and pans;
The only meal I select
Is that which heaven plans.[42]
Attentive is the scholar
That Master, pain, instructs;
A vivid erudition
His tutelage inducts.[44]
Long has the chaffing struggle raged
And God alone can know
When might the captive, fervour gained,
Slip his lax chains and go.[45]
Oh Father, calling, calling--and the light!
The light of immolation! Unto Thee lift up mine eyes...
Oh this lifting, lifting--
lifting beyond sense,
past doubt and why and how!
Bright Presence, lift me now![50]
The lady's tread upon the step,
Her hand upon the bell,
And all the rattling house grows wise
As when a solemn knell.
My heart knifed by insistent ring
I steel myself to go
With dread swamped pulse to swing the door
Upon her fraught hello.[52]
To everything but anguish
The mind will soon adjust:
Uninvited, that marauder,
Invading, trails with dust
About the scrupulous household
The tidy mind maintains
Sets soiling boots on ottoman,
Remotest chamber gains--
Wrenches down the damask curtains,
Break's housewife's favourite bowl
And storms up faith's chaste stairway
To bed the baulking soul.[54]
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