That December I went to a Christian convention called DCC. The speakers there were incredible and opened my mind to new ideas, but the greatest gift I received was when God broke my heart for the first time. As in, I physically and emotionally felt that. It was honestly the greatest feeling I have ever felt.
I’m trying my best to keep it short and sweet but this past year has been the greatest journey I have ever experienced and I’m excited to continue that journey the rest of my life. I’ve also been baptized in an act of obedience to God, not in any means to get “saved”. I go to a non-denominational church downtown who rents out a ballroom every Sunday. We have currently 150-200 people on a “busy” day. It’s really laid back and we’re all about the belief that “it’s the relationship, not a religion”.
As much as I adore the Christian faith, I have always had doubt. Heck, it’s only made me stronger figuring them out. I haven’t finished the bible, but I keep up on scripture and prayer every chance I get. Since the beginning I have always just focused on my relationship with God. Whether my prayers are to Jesus, or God, or the Father, I have always had the since all were the same through the trinity.
Another “doubt” you would say is I’ve always been open to the idea of One God. What makes me believe this is through spreading the word I just have never understood telling a Buddhist, or Muslim, or Jew, or whatever they’re wrong and I’m right. I just never could, and boy have I been prayed to about this…You could say through my friends and pastor (my pastor is 30 and one of my best friends) I’ve felt guilt because this isn’t what the Christian faith believes in, as far as my church goes.
Anyways, that’s basically everything in the smallest nut shell on the planet. Haha. I say all this, and I’m posting on this very forum because the attraction I feel for the baha’I faith is overwhelming. Last week I just came back from a missions trip in Mexico. We helped around an orphanage and it was a great experience for me. Although I spent most of the day digging a hole for them in 115 degree heat, my heart was always positive and willing. Back at the campus we were staying at we would have chapel, prayer time, quiet time, one-on-one time etc etc. I like to journal a lot and just pray through my words. I also like to meditate in a way? I don’t know, just deep concentration stuff. I wont lie, the only thing on my mind was this concept of One God. When during the day I would be facing so much more “deep” stuff I could have easily been praying, or writing about.. It was always about this idea.
This idea to me, where everyone black or white, male or female, Buddhist or Muslim, whatever it may be, can be united in such love…. Oh man, it’s just beautiful to me J This…amazing.. Truth.. It just fills my heart with joy. If you haven’t noticed, I’m really a big fan of the baha’I faith and everyday I learn more, and read more of Baha’u’llah’s writings that love just gets stronger. This is something new to me. I respect the Christian faith, and it will always be close to my heart because it ultimately is what lead me to God. I have so many question though. I’ve taken some religion classes and we have gone over briefly about the baha’I faith, we even had a speaker come in. So I know some history. I’m also reading the book Gleanings - The writings of Baha’u’llah, so I’m trying my best to educate myself the best I can.
I guess some of the questions on my mind are the “beginner” stuff. I’ve done some research so I know some of the basics, just some things aren’t as clear for me and I guess that’s why I’m here! J
Is there an official religious text? I know there are multiple books on the tablets of Baha’u’llah but I’m just wondering if there’s an “official” book. Kind of like there’s the bible, and there’s books with scripture in it. If that makes sense.
In the above paragraphs where I have done my best to explain WHY I’m attracted to the baha’I faith (unity, One God, etc) are these legitimate reasons? As in, as much as these reasons are on my heart, I don’t want to be…doing it for the wrong reasons you know?
I’m struggling thinking ahead so to speak. I do go to church, and its hard to explain but in my head I’ve gone for that relationship with God, and not the Christian faith. I’ve made some amazing friends of God through church and I’m not sure if me going is acceptable anymore in the baha’I faith . I guess I’m just trying to do it right? I feel I can go to any religious building, worship God, and there’s nothing wrong with that. It doesn’t matter in my eyes if I go to church if ultimately there is One God. At the same time I’m aware of reading the writings of Baha’u’llah is the core scripture to follow. It’s more just recognizing the other faiths than following all of them.. That would get confusing. I more just want all of your opinions on this. It would be greatly appreciated. Also there is NO baha’I center in my area. From networking sites I’m also having trouble finding other baha’I’s in my area. I’m still looking but honestly, I live in the BIBLE belt of the united states so my odds aren’t that great.
Doing missions work is something I cherish in my life. However, I’m curious if there are baha’I missions groups I can be a part of? Possibly 1+year stints… or even short term trips. Better yet, is it even called Missions work? Is it something else? Is it even part of the faith… I honestly have no idea on this topic. Also I should re-phrase what I’m talking about. Not spreading the word type stuff, but more serving and helping others.
I think that’s it for now haha. I have so much more to ask and talk about but I can’t seem to remember the rest right now. That might be a good thing though. I hope I haven’t written too much for you all
